Dear Matt...

Life is weird, ya know?

I've been so busy at work and so exhausted at home.

I think I need a vacay.

I hear it's nice where you are.

Any flights available? ;)

I still miss you, Bobo. Tons.

But I think it's getting easier to think of you and not have to freeze my heart.

You seriously were the best thing that ever happened to me.

Because of you, I know deep down that all will be all right.

Because of you, I have family that loves me and cares for me, besides my own.

I have friends who worry about me and make me smile.

I have shelter, thanks to your BFF.

I have money to go to school and try to make something of myself so I can take care of myself.

And I have many wonderful memories of you.

So many memories to last me a lifetime.

Don't get me wrong; I would give all that I have, all that I am to have the opportunity to create more memories with you, but I do thank Heavenly Father for the ones that I have now.

Boo, it's weird to think of me getting married to someone else and having a life with them.

A life that was supposed to be ours.

You know I never thought I would get married, then you came along and swept me off my feet.

Boy, I loved you.

You know the moment I knew I wanted you?

It was at Tracy's wedding.

There you were, in a dark red soft thick shirt, looking all handsome and stuff.

You were the most intelligent man I had ever met.

Intelligent and loving.

It was so easy to love you.

I know it wasn't the same with me, but thank you for trying.

I know that I will probably live the rest of my life alone, so I have to prepare for that.

I am strong.

I can do it.

I just have to keep waking up in the morning.

Staying busy.

Living life.

Till next I see you.

Me